Hi! Last time I wrote on this blog was when I was still quite stressed about getting into medical school, and trying to sort out my whole life. Honestly, I'm still trying to sort out my life but I'm finally in medical school.
I remember it was only a few months ago when I was starting to panic about whether I would get into med school, and I was starting to doubt myself. The doubting myself part hasn't changed yet, so I guess it's not just about getting into a school, it's really just me and my mental health which is in general, always freaking out.
To be really true to myself, starting med school has been a little stressful. Everyone around me is amazingly complex but also intellectual, and they all seem to belong at school. It is hard to start feeling like I can belong, and that stress in my brain actually has started to torment my own ability to socialise. I'm not too sure what my anxiety wants from me; does it want me to be an outsider in a place where I am am allowed in, or does it have no reasoning other than to stress me out, as that is what has been projected from the facility from the start of the semester. The faculty of medicine has been pushing this agenda that this semester is going to be hard, and I wish I could acceptably doubt that, but my friends and past students have some what agreed to this image:
I also think one of my main struggles isn't even that there is supposedly information overload, it's that I don't have the routine of a medical student. Like my personality and my hobbies aren't those that suit the medical profession.
I've started making my bed when I wake up, and started to question whether my very dry and a little non-PC sense of humour is going to be accepted in this highly professional space. It's really hard to feel like I have an identity, when I feel like even if I did, it doesn't conform with everyone elses.
I wonder whether other people feel like this too, or that they aren't that bothered by the other people and are happy doing what they are normally doing. Which reminds me that I should be continuing with my hobbies, as doing tutoring and then just lying in bed and watching five netflix series is really not the best for my mental health, and also a really boring answer to 'what did you do this weekend'.
So, after a mini trip to woolworths, I've decided I really want to grow watercress. A bunch goes for 3 dollars, and my mum and I are obsessed with having it.
Watercress
It is a perennial (lives more than two years) plant which is native to Europe and Asian. It usually grows in a auqatic or semiaquatic area, and it's hollow stems will float. This makes it really easy to grow in a hydroponic garden, or really really wet soil. I'm unsure whether I want to grow it hydroponically yet. They can be consumed as sprouts or, as my mum and I like to consume them, can grow up to 120cm.
Interesting fact is that watercress is a cytochrone P450 inhibitor, which is found in many herbs such as St Johns Wort, which could alter drug metabolism.
According to organicgardener.com.au, it is easily grown in cool weather - plant in autmn and growt he plants through winter in a sunny area. Needs lots of water!
Yida's watercress adventures
I'm unsure whether I'm going to continue writing in my blog, but if I do, hopefully I'll keep you updated on how the watercress is going to grow.
I'm thinking of having a two plastic container method in growing, where you have one plastic container with holes on the bottom and is the main container with the plant and soil. Another plastic container which has rocks and envelops the other plastic container, and I can keep lots of water in. I will update you when my seeds arrive.
Thanks for reading,
Yida
I remember it was only a few months ago when I was starting to panic about whether I would get into med school, and I was starting to doubt myself. The doubting myself part hasn't changed yet, so I guess it's not just about getting into a school, it's really just me and my mental health which is in general, always freaking out.
To be really true to myself, starting med school has been a little stressful. Everyone around me is amazingly complex but also intellectual, and they all seem to belong at school. It is hard to start feeling like I can belong, and that stress in my brain actually has started to torment my own ability to socialise. I'm not too sure what my anxiety wants from me; does it want me to be an outsider in a place where I am am allowed in, or does it have no reasoning other than to stress me out, as that is what has been projected from the facility from the start of the semester. The faculty of medicine has been pushing this agenda that this semester is going to be hard, and I wish I could acceptably doubt that, but my friends and past students have some what agreed to this image:
I've started making my bed when I wake up, and started to question whether my very dry and a little non-PC sense of humour is going to be accepted in this highly professional space. It's really hard to feel like I have an identity, when I feel like even if I did, it doesn't conform with everyone elses.
I wonder whether other people feel like this too, or that they aren't that bothered by the other people and are happy doing what they are normally doing. Which reminds me that I should be continuing with my hobbies, as doing tutoring and then just lying in bed and watching five netflix series is really not the best for my mental health, and also a really boring answer to 'what did you do this weekend'.
So, after a mini trip to woolworths, I've decided I really want to grow watercress. A bunch goes for 3 dollars, and my mum and I are obsessed with having it.
Watercress
It is a perennial (lives more than two years) plant which is native to Europe and Asian. It usually grows in a auqatic or semiaquatic area, and it's hollow stems will float. This makes it really easy to grow in a hydroponic garden, or really really wet soil. I'm unsure whether I want to grow it hydroponically yet. They can be consumed as sprouts or, as my mum and I like to consume them, can grow up to 120cm.
Interesting fact is that watercress is a cytochrone P450 inhibitor, which is found in many herbs such as St Johns Wort, which could alter drug metabolism.
According to organicgardener.com.au, it is easily grown in cool weather - plant in autmn and growt he plants through winter in a sunny area. Needs lots of water!
Yida's watercress adventures
I'm unsure whether I'm going to continue writing in my blog, but if I do, hopefully I'll keep you updated on how the watercress is going to grow.
I'm thinking of having a two plastic container method in growing, where you have one plastic container with holes on the bottom and is the main container with the plant and soil. Another plastic container which has rocks and envelops the other plastic container, and I can keep lots of water in. I will update you when my seeds arrive.
Thanks for reading,
Yida
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